sometimes I just...

I just don't know what I should to do
it's not about my everydays actions
it's about my own feelings and thought
i heard over millions times words like
"you should take everything so close to heart"
ok
it took a lot of time, but I tried to learn this
and now, before write smth to somebody, I think a lot
and because of that
I'm not sure what I really want to say or to do
and what more
when I finally wrote something
I think I should be more polite
or probably more cute
or it wasn't worth expressing my opinion at all
so in the end
I think that I just don't know myself
I just 
just 
not sure
that I am me

dc -190922-