is there somebody..?

i'm not a good person -

i know.

i already know that i have many flaws and lacks.

but i try to live my life good.

i try to do my best.

not every day, and it's sad, of course. 

not all time, and this is reason why 

i'm still can't find the purpose of my life..

ok

i wasn't good from the beginning,

but i try to be better to my closest. 

but

they often don't think so..

i can feel it sometimes.

just feel.

they don't tell anything. 

i just know it.

so..

so i'm interested a lot. 

in what kind of way i should do something. 

in what reason another people are more comfortable to my friends. 

was i at least someone really "dear/special" person?

or just a little comfortable person. 

was i a good friend?

am i a good friend?

is there a person who is grateful cuz i'm living my life?

is there somebody..?